Being naked with someone is not an easy thing to do because they get to see you.
All of you.
Beyond the pretty face, they get to the bumps, bruises and scars. For every perfection, there is another imperfection to match it. And because of this, sometimes a person can be afraid to get naked in front of someone else...because there are too many glaring imperfections.
A couple of weeks back, I had the chance to hear someone talk about how in a way, when you open yourself up to someone, it's like you're being naked with them because then they get to see your hopes, dreams, fears, insecurities. And that can be just as difficult to show someone, just as a naked body would be.
As for me, I haven't done much of either. Being a (relative) virgin by choice, by religion, and through insanity, I've survived this far without sexual relations in spite of comments from my peers that I should be done with it already. The thing is though, despite my hormones raging against me and temptations all around, I would like to lose my virginity on my terms, and no one else's, which means that I'd like my first experience to be with someone whom I love and trust, and hopefully the feeling would be mutual between us.
Something that's been harder for me to do than to lose my virginity, is to be really comfortable and open up to someone. To tell someone about my feelings, good or bad, about my hopes of becoming a photographer or teacher and yet let them know about my doubts and fears about my abilities to do well in those careers. It's hard for me to tell someone about how I worry about my others and how my inability to support them now gnaws at me constantly, and yet I want to be able to tell someone that. I want to confess to someone that I really don't know what love is but I'd want to know, and that at the same time I'm weary and intrigued at the possibility of getting into a relationship with someone, anyone. Not for experience, but because I like that person and could see myself with that person for a long time.
I want to say this and a lot more, and it feels like I'm bursting at my seams to not just talk to someone, to be naked with someone, someone I trust and love.
That's all anyone needs really, whether they're exposing their body or their soul. We all need someone by our side that we know we can love and trust to help us every step of the way.
http://www.myspace.com/msun/blog/203541459
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Eating Disorder!
I saw this on Oprah and I couldnt stand it; the 5'6, 80 pound woman caught my attention today. Nothing was mentioned about her weight or her problem when I flipped on the channel. Her thin face, and stick legs are what caught my attention.
When The Oprah Winfrey Show asked women what is missing in their lives, the number one answer was "love for myself." According to Dr. Robin Smith, there are many signs that you may be suffering from a lack of love for yourself. Eating or drinking too much, abusing drugs, overspending, working too hard or even gossiping could all be signs of a lack of self-love.
This self-hatred can even be deadly. Leigh has been married for 12 years, has two children, and is dangerously anorexic. She is 5-foot-6 and weighs 82 poundsless than an average 10-year-old girl.
Leigh says she used to work out two hours a day, but now after 20 minutes her weak body can't take any more exertion. Leigh says she's disappeared both physically and emotionally. "I used to be the life of the party," she says. "Nobody really wants to be around me anymore."
Leigh has begun worrying how her disease is affecting her 8-year-old son, Benton, who weighs nearly as much as his mom. "My children eat, but they see how I eat and [in turn] don't eat snacks," Leigh says. "It's not that I try to keep it from them, but I worry about my oldest and I worry about what he's going to eat."
In what Oprah calls "one of the saddest things" she's ever heard, Leigh's son, Benton, shares his feelings on his mom's health.
"I wish my mom could play longer with me. Because of her energy loss, she sometimes just doesn't feel like doing anything. I feel kind of sad because my dad usually gets onto her because she doesn't eat enough. And he always says, 'If you put on about 30 more pounds, I'll be happy.' I feel a little sad for her because I know she can't put on 30 more pounds because she doesn't eat enough.
"At supper, she usually eats way before us. Sometimes I would like to prepare supper for her so that she can eat a little more.
"When my mom and dad are in the arguments and I'm still awake, I get pretty scared when my dad yells. And my mom usually just says, 'This is the way I want it.' She asks me sometimes if she needs to gain a little more weight, so she knows that I'm thinking about it. Usually I don't ask her because I don't know if it will hurt her feelings or not. Telling her that she needs to gain a little more weight, that she needs to play with us more. If I asked her that, well, she'll probably say, 'I'm doing the best I can.'"
After hearing Benton say how sad he is about her eating disorder, Leigh tearfully says, "I guess they understand more than you think, don't they?"
Dr. Robin urges Leigh to understand the impact her anorexia has on Benton. "When you have children, we give up our right to self-destruct because there are people depending on you," she says.
Leigh's husband, Brian, also has been struggling with his wife's anorexia. He says that in the past he has begged her to eat. Dr. Robin is distressed by his attitude. "If the ship is going down," she asks, "do you plan on it going down with you and your sons in it?"
"Yes, we'll be there," Brian says.
"That's a problem," Dr. Robin explains. "We think love means, 'I'll go down with the ship.' If we have kids, some parent must say, 'If this ship is sinking, it will not take my children down with it.'"
Dr. Robin says that the origins of Leigh's anorexia can be found well before the date she actually stopped eating regularly. Leigh says that though she was adopted, she had a "wonderful childhood." Dr. Robin asks her to more deeply analyze her feelings about being adopted.
"Now I'm more okay with it," Leigh says. "But as a child you wonder, 'Why didn't someone love me?'"
"In many ways, you are still a child who is still asking, 'Why am I unimportant?' And how do I know that? You're evaporating, you are becoming invisible," Dr. Robin says. "You are willing to die and leave your children and your husband alone to prove the fact that she wasn't worthy to be kept."
Dr. Robin says that anorexics like Leigh, and people who otherwise abuse themselves, are refusing to feed themselves physically, emotionally or spiritually. "You are redoing that pain and showing yourself that you deserve to be rejected," she says.
http://www.myspace.com/msun/blog/158044645
When The Oprah Winfrey Show asked women what is missing in their lives, the number one answer was "love for myself." According to Dr. Robin Smith, there are many signs that you may be suffering from a lack of love for yourself. Eating or drinking too much, abusing drugs, overspending, working too hard or even gossiping could all be signs of a lack of self-love.
This self-hatred can even be deadly. Leigh has been married for 12 years, has two children, and is dangerously anorexic. She is 5-foot-6 and weighs 82 poundsless than an average 10-year-old girl.
Leigh says she used to work out two hours a day, but now after 20 minutes her weak body can't take any more exertion. Leigh says she's disappeared both physically and emotionally. "I used to be the life of the party," she says. "Nobody really wants to be around me anymore."
Leigh has begun worrying how her disease is affecting her 8-year-old son, Benton, who weighs nearly as much as his mom. "My children eat, but they see how I eat and [in turn] don't eat snacks," Leigh says. "It's not that I try to keep it from them, but I worry about my oldest and I worry about what he's going to eat."
In what Oprah calls "one of the saddest things" she's ever heard, Leigh's son, Benton, shares his feelings on his mom's health.
"I wish my mom could play longer with me. Because of her energy loss, she sometimes just doesn't feel like doing anything. I feel kind of sad because my dad usually gets onto her because she doesn't eat enough. And he always says, 'If you put on about 30 more pounds, I'll be happy.' I feel a little sad for her because I know she can't put on 30 more pounds because she doesn't eat enough.
"At supper, she usually eats way before us. Sometimes I would like to prepare supper for her so that she can eat a little more.
"When my mom and dad are in the arguments and I'm still awake, I get pretty scared when my dad yells. And my mom usually just says, 'This is the way I want it.' She asks me sometimes if she needs to gain a little more weight, so she knows that I'm thinking about it. Usually I don't ask her because I don't know if it will hurt her feelings or not. Telling her that she needs to gain a little more weight, that she needs to play with us more. If I asked her that, well, she'll probably say, 'I'm doing the best I can.'"
After hearing Benton say how sad he is about her eating disorder, Leigh tearfully says, "I guess they understand more than you think, don't they?"
Dr. Robin urges Leigh to understand the impact her anorexia has on Benton. "When you have children, we give up our right to self-destruct because there are people depending on you," she says.
Leigh's husband, Brian, also has been struggling with his wife's anorexia. He says that in the past he has begged her to eat. Dr. Robin is distressed by his attitude. "If the ship is going down," she asks, "do you plan on it going down with you and your sons in it?"
"Yes, we'll be there," Brian says.
"That's a problem," Dr. Robin explains. "We think love means, 'I'll go down with the ship.' If we have kids, some parent must say, 'If this ship is sinking, it will not take my children down with it.'"
Dr. Robin says that the origins of Leigh's anorexia can be found well before the date she actually stopped eating regularly. Leigh says that though she was adopted, she had a "wonderful childhood." Dr. Robin asks her to more deeply analyze her feelings about being adopted.
"Now I'm more okay with it," Leigh says. "But as a child you wonder, 'Why didn't someone love me?'"
"In many ways, you are still a child who is still asking, 'Why am I unimportant?' And how do I know that? You're evaporating, you are becoming invisible," Dr. Robin says. "You are willing to die and leave your children and your husband alone to prove the fact that she wasn't worthy to be kept."
Dr. Robin says that anorexics like Leigh, and people who otherwise abuse themselves, are refusing to feed themselves physically, emotionally or spiritually. "You are redoing that pain and showing yourself that you deserve to be rejected," she says.
http://www.myspace.com/msun/blog/158044645
Listen for the silence
Amid all the noise and chaos in the world, I stopped to listen for the silence...
It's harder than it should be, but something's always making noise in my head. It definitely wouldn't hurt to put everything out of my mind for a little while.
I'm trying to get back to being healthy again. That means nutrition and exercise and all that. I've been getting really lazy lately, so it'll be a challenge. Even despite my relaxed work schedule, I still can't get myself to make time for some things. Not yet at least.
Which reminds me... I need a priority check.
http://www.myspace.com/msun/blog/81681451
It's harder than it should be, but something's always making noise in my head. It definitely wouldn't hurt to put everything out of my mind for a little while.
I'm trying to get back to being healthy again. That means nutrition and exercise and all that. I've been getting really lazy lately, so it'll be a challenge. Even despite my relaxed work schedule, I still can't get myself to make time for some things. Not yet at least.
Which reminds me... I need a priority check.
http://www.myspace.com/msun/blog/81681451
Theory
Einstein once asked the question: "How much choice did God have in constructing the universe?"
Even if there is only one possible unified theory, it is just a set of rules and equations. What is it that breathes fire into the equations and makes a universe for them to describe?... Why does the universe go to all the bother of existing? Is the unified theory so compelling that it brings about its own existence? Or does it need a creator, and, if so, does he have any other effect on the universe? And who created him?
... if we do discover a complete theory, it should in time be understandable in broad principle by everyone, not just a few scientists. Then we shall all, philosophers, scientists, and just ordinary people, be able to take part in the discussion of the question of why it is that we and the universe exist. If we find the answer to that, it would be the ultimate triumph of human reason - for then we would know the mind of God.
http://www.myspace.com/msun/blog/71714396
Even if there is only one possible unified theory, it is just a set of rules and equations. What is it that breathes fire into the equations and makes a universe for them to describe?... Why does the universe go to all the bother of existing? Is the unified theory so compelling that it brings about its own existence? Or does it need a creator, and, if so, does he have any other effect on the universe? And who created him?
... if we do discover a complete theory, it should in time be understandable in broad principle by everyone, not just a few scientists. Then we shall all, philosophers, scientists, and just ordinary people, be able to take part in the discussion of the question of why it is that we and the universe exist. If we find the answer to that, it would be the ultimate triumph of human reason - for then we would know the mind of God.
http://www.myspace.com/msun/blog/71714396
I'm apprehensive.
It's strange when you wait anxiously for something to end, and when it does. It's scares you. Everyone goes through school wishing it were over, feeling like the end will never come. Some people figure it out- their high aspirations of things they wish to acheive, the steps they'll take to get there. Plans of how their lives will change for the better- an excitement, a sense of readiness and direction. Some don't know, and for some thats alright. I'm not so sure. It's not alright for me. I want to see how it will all unfold. Sometimes I wish that just for a moment, I could see into God's plans- How this sense of confusion and loss fits in. The whole thing honestly leaves me scared and almost insurpassably insecure. Maybe I have yet to figure out exactly who I am, and who I want to be. Maybe it's a fear of rejection and inadequacy. I would like to think everyone feels this way, but I guess I'm not the only one.
http://www.myspace.com/msun/blog/70465922
http://www.myspace.com/msun/blog/70465922
What I found when I checked out ViralURL...
So you have finally stepped into the world of making money online. You too, like the others, have decided to start with the affiliate programs. Also, you must have heard that it's not a big deal to make good money with affiliate marketing, provided you choose the right programs and do some strategic planning while promoting your affiliate products. So far so good.
Whether you are promoting other people's products or promoting your own products - that doesn't matter because after all it is nothing but your own business and your means to earn good money. So whichever be your case, I am sure you would not want to leave money on the table and invite others to steal your share of profit.
Even though the industry of affiliate marketing is pretty competitive but if you are cautious and are strategic in your marketing techniques then, it could be very profitable for you.
Take a close look at the industry, you will see that not every one who gets into affiliate marketing is successful. People who are doing well leave no room for failure and take all security measures and understand its importance.
Yes! Security is one of the key factors in affiliate marketing. If you do not adopt proper security measures, then your business will be at high risk. One of the most important way to restore security is to protect your affiliate links. Do not take them for granted. A bit of carelessness on your part in regards to affiliate links may cost you a lot of dollars.
Do you know the long complicated links that you send to your prospective customers not only look convoluted but they can create a lot of problems too! If you send such an affiliate link to your customers, then the smart ones will definitely figure out that you are promoting someone else's product and they would rather visit the parent company. Also, if your link does not function then your customers have to type a really long URL into the browser, which will definitely put him or her off.
You could be a victim of even a worse situation. What if some devious Internet pirates steal your affiliate links and replace them with theirs. If they do that, then you get no commission at all.
Did I scare you off with all of the above possibilities? Well, that certainly wasn't my intention. I just wanted to open your eyes and state facts that actually happen in the world of Internet. It happened with me until I came across ViralURL , that brought a revolution to my online ventures.
So, if you are not getting the desired results out of your affiliate marketing, don't lose hope. There's definitely a remedy to this problem and that is ViralURL
Do I hear you asking, what is it and how can it help in averting any adverse situation for an affiliate marketer like me?
Be patient and read on, if you love your business.
ViralURL is a link shortener & cloaker that protects you in the truest sense. There may be many unethical people lurking around, who might play with your affiliate links by cutting them off or replacing them with their own etc. How much effort you put in towards building your business and advertising your business, if your links are tampered with, then all your hard work will be rendered useless.
In order to avoid such a rip off, ViralURL gives you full protection and sees to it that your affiliate links never get exposed to others.
So save yourself from getting ripped. Get all the commissions to your account that you rightfully deserve. All this is made possible by ViralURL
It is a blessing for every affiliate marketer like you and me, who wants to achieve success in their endeavor.
Is ViralURL limited to only link protection?
NO!
It does much much more than that. Let's see what ViralURL can do for us:
*ViralURL helps us in protecting commission.
*ViralURL helps in building mailing lists.
*ViralURL helps in tracking statistics.
*ViralURL helps in earning extra ad credits.
In short, ViralURL allows us to create massive business leverage.
I don't see any negative aspect associated with ViralURL. All you have to do is join it for free, then cloak your links, promote them and see your business soaring higher and higher.
You can get all detailed information about the program from the ViralURL site at http://vur.me/hypervrlhtm. There, you can find several unsolicited testimonials from various users of ViralURL. So if you want to protect your business and see your earnings grow, try ViralURL. You have nothing to lose with it.
Whether you are promoting other people's products or promoting your own products - that doesn't matter because after all it is nothing but your own business and your means to earn good money. So whichever be your case, I am sure you would not want to leave money on the table and invite others to steal your share of profit.
Even though the industry of affiliate marketing is pretty competitive but if you are cautious and are strategic in your marketing techniques then, it could be very profitable for you.
Take a close look at the industry, you will see that not every one who gets into affiliate marketing is successful. People who are doing well leave no room for failure and take all security measures and understand its importance.
Yes! Security is one of the key factors in affiliate marketing. If you do not adopt proper security measures, then your business will be at high risk. One of the most important way to restore security is to protect your affiliate links. Do not take them for granted. A bit of carelessness on your part in regards to affiliate links may cost you a lot of dollars.
Do you know the long complicated links that you send to your prospective customers not only look convoluted but they can create a lot of problems too! If you send such an affiliate link to your customers, then the smart ones will definitely figure out that you are promoting someone else's product and they would rather visit the parent company. Also, if your link does not function then your customers have to type a really long URL into the browser, which will definitely put him or her off.
You could be a victim of even a worse situation. What if some devious Internet pirates steal your affiliate links and replace them with theirs. If they do that, then you get no commission at all.
Did I scare you off with all of the above possibilities? Well, that certainly wasn't my intention. I just wanted to open your eyes and state facts that actually happen in the world of Internet. It happened with me until I came across ViralURL , that brought a revolution to my online ventures.
So, if you are not getting the desired results out of your affiliate marketing, don't lose hope. There's definitely a remedy to this problem and that is ViralURL
Do I hear you asking, what is it and how can it help in averting any adverse situation for an affiliate marketer like me?
Be patient and read on, if you love your business.
ViralURL is a link shortener & cloaker that protects you in the truest sense. There may be many unethical people lurking around, who might play with your affiliate links by cutting them off or replacing them with their own etc. How much effort you put in towards building your business and advertising your business, if your links are tampered with, then all your hard work will be rendered useless.
In order to avoid such a rip off, ViralURL gives you full protection and sees to it that your affiliate links never get exposed to others.
So save yourself from getting ripped. Get all the commissions to your account that you rightfully deserve. All this is made possible by ViralURL
It is a blessing for every affiliate marketer like you and me, who wants to achieve success in their endeavor.
Is ViralURL limited to only link protection?
NO!
It does much much more than that. Let's see what ViralURL can do for us:
*ViralURL helps us in protecting commission.
*ViralURL helps in building mailing lists.
*ViralURL helps in tracking statistics.
*ViralURL helps in earning extra ad credits.
In short, ViralURL allows us to create massive business leverage.
I don't see any negative aspect associated with ViralURL. All you have to do is join it for free, then cloak your links, promote them and see your business soaring higher and higher.
You can get all detailed information about the program from the ViralURL site at http://vur.me/hypervrlhtm. There, you can find several unsolicited testimonials from various users of ViralURL. So if you want to protect your business and see your earnings grow, try ViralURL. You have nothing to lose with it.
Simple tricks to increase Adsense CPC/CPM/earnings/revenue 100
If you are a HubPages user, chances are you're using Google Adsense? Why? Cuz Adsense is the biggest, highest-CPC program out there today.
What does CPC mean? Cost per click. CPM? Cost per 1000 hits (whatever the M means, I have no clue, but that's what it is.)
Anyways, I have a few small strategies to increase your Adsense CPC, thus allowing you to make much more money than you already were without doing much different than you are doing now.
1: KEYWORDS. Figure out which keywords have the highest CPC and search traffic, using the Adwords tool. Search, search and search more, and find keywords that have high CPC. Then, center your pages or HubPages articles around such keywords. Don't bother with keywords that pay 1 cent, 30 cents, etc per click/CPM. Go for, ideally, the $2.50+ keywords - and ESPECIALLY go after the over $10.00 keywords.
This is THE SINGLE MOST IMPORTANT part of your mission. You don't want a page that makes 1 dollar out of 6 ad unit clicks - you want a page that pulls 6 dollars out of 2 ad-unit clicks, or 60 dollars out of 8 clicks, or even better. Even if you already have a lot of traffic, you WILL NOT make a nice amount of change unless you are smart with your keywords. Even if you are not an internet marketer, you should still use this.
2: LIMIT THE AD UNITS. If you can help it, don't go having 12-15 different ad units on your page. Why? Cuz there is less competition for advertisers to get ads onto your page. That means advertisers can pay less, meaning Google pays you less. If you have, say, 6 ads on your page, you knock off the 6 lowest paying ads, because advertisers are fighting for just 6 spaces instead of 12 spaces. (This mostly applies on your own sites, not on HubPages)
And if you are one of those tinker-happy jackasses, like me, quit tinkering, set your page to a certain ad-unit setup, and leave it. I've noticed my clicks AND my cpc go down if I'm always tinkering with the type and positioning of the ad units.
That said, if your keywords check out with the adwords tool as being both high-CPC and high-traffic, and high-advertiser-competition, you can probably get away with more ad units
3: MAKE YOUR HIGHEST-CTR UNIT YOUR HIGHEST CPC UNIT. You can't do this for HubPages, but you can do this for your own websites. Use your channel tracker to figure out WHAT your ad unit is that has the highest CTR (click through ratio). That means what are most of your viewers clicking on? Then, make sure that that particular ad unit comes FIRST in the HTML. Whether or not it's at the top of the page is irrelevant - MAKE SURE it comes first in the code. Change your lower-CTR units into link units or move them, or delete them.
I don't make any riches off of Adsense, but just doing half of this so far has more than tripled my income (from about 13 dollars a month to over 40 a month). Hey, at least I'm honest, not lying to try to get you to believe that I make 1000 a month off of this garbage without putting in a HUGE amount of work. For me, Adsense is good beer and gym-membership money. My goal is to make it car-payment money. Will it?
What does CPC mean? Cost per click. CPM? Cost per 1000 hits (whatever the M means, I have no clue, but that's what it is.)
Anyways, I have a few small strategies to increase your Adsense CPC, thus allowing you to make much more money than you already were without doing much different than you are doing now.
1: KEYWORDS. Figure out which keywords have the highest CPC and search traffic, using the Adwords tool. Search, search and search more, and find keywords that have high CPC. Then, center your pages or HubPages articles around such keywords. Don't bother with keywords that pay 1 cent, 30 cents, etc per click/CPM. Go for, ideally, the $2.50+ keywords - and ESPECIALLY go after the over $10.00 keywords.
This is THE SINGLE MOST IMPORTANT part of your mission. You don't want a page that makes 1 dollar out of 6 ad unit clicks - you want a page that pulls 6 dollars out of 2 ad-unit clicks, or 60 dollars out of 8 clicks, or even better. Even if you already have a lot of traffic, you WILL NOT make a nice amount of change unless you are smart with your keywords. Even if you are not an internet marketer, you should still use this.
2: LIMIT THE AD UNITS. If you can help it, don't go having 12-15 different ad units on your page. Why? Cuz there is less competition for advertisers to get ads onto your page. That means advertisers can pay less, meaning Google pays you less. If you have, say, 6 ads on your page, you knock off the 6 lowest paying ads, because advertisers are fighting for just 6 spaces instead of 12 spaces. (This mostly applies on your own sites, not on HubPages)
And if you are one of those tinker-happy jackasses, like me, quit tinkering, set your page to a certain ad-unit setup, and leave it. I've noticed my clicks AND my cpc go down if I'm always tinkering with the type and positioning of the ad units.
That said, if your keywords check out with the adwords tool as being both high-CPC and high-traffic, and high-advertiser-competition, you can probably get away with more ad units
3: MAKE YOUR HIGHEST-CTR UNIT YOUR HIGHEST CPC UNIT. You can't do this for HubPages, but you can do this for your own websites. Use your channel tracker to figure out WHAT your ad unit is that has the highest CTR (click through ratio). That means what are most of your viewers clicking on? Then, make sure that that particular ad unit comes FIRST in the HTML. Whether or not it's at the top of the page is irrelevant - MAKE SURE it comes first in the code. Change your lower-CTR units into link units or move them, or delete them.
I don't make any riches off of Adsense, but just doing half of this so far has more than tripled my income (from about 13 dollars a month to over 40 a month). Hey, at least I'm honest, not lying to try to get you to believe that I make 1000 a month off of this garbage without putting in a HUGE amount of work. For me, Adsense is good beer and gym-membership money. My goal is to make it car-payment money. Will it?
- Free Adsense Guide - Guide to increasing your revenue, CTR, CPM, CPC and income
- Some tips to increase Adsense CTR (click through ratio) Well, I already posted a tip on how to increase your CPC on Adsense (cost per click), but CPC doesn't help worth a crap if you have no clicks or are getting a 0.5 percent CTR. Who cares if you make 1.50 a...
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