I think my biggest problem is that I care too much. I'm always the one putting in all the effort, but the same never comes back to me. It sucks to feel like you're the only one putting in any effort. It's exhausting to get disappointed every time. I should stop beating myself up over it, because it is not my fault. I put in the effort, I showed I care, it's up to them to realize that and appreciate it. Sadly, I won't be holding my breath for that.
I guess it's true what they say, the good guys really do finish last. They are indeed the ones that get recognized last, appreciated when its too late, and hurt the most. I'm getting tired of waking up every morning and hoping that being the good guy will pay off.
And its a wonder why there are so many assholes in the world. Perhaps it's because they are sick and tired of being the ones that always gets let down, so they put up a shield to protect themselves from being too vulnerable.
Maybe I should start being an asshole, even if it is not my nature to be one... it sure is a lot easier to not care about someone. Someone once told me, "I have no one to love and no one loves me. The strange thing is, I'm happy about it. Because when you have no one to love, you can't get hurt." I used to feel bad for that person, but now I'm starting to envy their way of thinking.
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